Love Poem III

We are continued on a more romantic episode, enjoy it ..

• Nothing more than this / I asked God for just his kiss / my eternal bliss.
• You said I won't be alone when you leave me. But, in the end you are wrong. I am alone and still missing you.
• Don't lend me a hand, for on my own I can stand, but give me your heart, and tell me we'll never be apart.
• This is my mistake, lending you that knife, then let you close enough; to make a stab.
• Your smile may not able to make the flowers bloom, But it sure is good enough for me to drop my spoon.
• I love you in silence,without any single words ever been made or spoken.I love you simply by praying for your happiness.
• You are my greatest view. It's been you and only you my lens would catch.
• You are my cup of coffee. It's been you, and only you my lips would taste.
• One day, I wanna have a picture of me on my knee with the perfect diamond ring with you in front of me.
• I don't mind walking in the dark, if there's you holding my hands, leading us toward the lights.
• A rainbow appear - Between the forest of words - I smile, with you inside my thought.
• You are the silence between the notes. The space between the letters. The nothing that makes everything else something.
• I am the infinite emptiness that longs to be fulfilled by you.
• I used to be me, until I meet thee.
• You are the first sprout of Spring. The antidote to all the bad thoughts that doubt brings.
• Even in my worst nightmares, you come and try to save me when no one else dares.
• Your eyes are the cliffs where lovers fall into then perish.
• If a day without you is like food without salt, I'd rather starve.
• Tell me baby, how could I resist you, for your fair skin glows like the morning dew.
• If a night with you is what i have left to spend, i would stall the seconds to never let it end.
• A picture speaks of a thousand things, but none of the millions i have for you.
• I will get by, no goodbyes will make me die.
• Do me right, and thee I promise an unforgettable night.
• My belief is that no time's a waste in loving you.
• I might smile, dear world, it is but a guise, under which my sorrow hides.
• I'd love to stay and count the stars with you. Coz I know it would take a lifetime or maybe even two.
• My heart became stronger after you hurt it. Making it even better for the one who truly deserves it.
• Who am I but nothingness in your lively realm ?
• And though love stings like a bee, you still get down on your knee.
• I said I won't cry. You chuckled seeing my reddish eyes then wiped my dry cheek and said, "here, save it for later."
• Funny how your name always manages to find it's way into my prayers.
• I put a message in a bottle, watched it sail across the ocean blue. So free of limitations like my love for you.
• Biting my lip, stopping it from trembling. You're the one to say goodbye, I'm the one who's gonna cry.
• Loving you is like watching some black and white movie. It maybe old & vintage, but it lasts forever.
• The taste of your lips is running through my veins, suddenly removes all the pain..
• Sing to me some love songs. Seduce me. Make me believe that you can love me in a romantic way. 
• Kiss me, baby. And I'll take you to another space and time, where everything is sweet and soft like the taste of your lips.

We see in the next episode. :)

Cheers ..
I Putu Sansan Choa

Love Poem II

We are continued on a more romantic episode ..

• When everything feels the same, I go looking for a change. If you are the only, then why am I still lonely ?
• When I said I love u, I put my heart on a gambling table. Will I win or will I lose? It all depends on you.
• Come, My Love. Let me take you to a beautiful world. A world where our love is the only thing that exists.
• Falling in love with you is like being in a movie. Every scene is full of drama, surprise and excitement.
• I love the pain that I feel, every time I write your name on my heart.
• I don't need a ring, or any other jewelry. I just need a hand to hold me tight, and a heart to go home to.
• It only requires a constant trickle of love to make a hole in your heart of stone.
• You broke my heart. Yet I'm still standing strong, walking pass the heartache, forgetting the pain, leaving you behind.
• I'm not falling in love, I'm falling for you.
• Love is there. Staring at me. Saying, 'You can’t have me.' 
• Hardly existent, a small picture. A figurine, blown out of proportion giving the illusion of kindness n beauty.. You.
• But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see. So we can both be there and share the dark.
• Letting you go is not that simple. I'd be better off letting my face be full of pimples.
• I love my self better than you. I know it's wrong, but what should i do.
• I'm a vegan. Having your lips on mine is the only exception.
• Enchanted lullaby that trapped my soul. Leaving my body a prey, a puppet. Beautiful words intoxicating my heart: I love you.
• I once had a blue and purple swimsuit and sun-burnt skin. They're no longer here, but tucked somewhere deep within.
• I wish someone would wake me up with a cuddle and a kiss. Someone I really miss. But I am yet to know who he is.
• Do you wanna know what it feels like losing you? It's like catching teardrops on the floor. Frustrating!
• When the night comes, don't go anywhere but here, stay forever in my heart.
• They may say that nothing beautiful lasts. But when the beautiful thing is you, then it'll last, in my heart.
• Loving you is a luxury that I can't afford to indulge in.
• There's no way I'm holding you down, if all you want is to fly away.
• I wish my smile would make the butterflies-in-your-stomach fly away.
• Have you fallen into a love deeper than mine ?
• The ballad of you and me, was written in my blood, rough yet beautifully.
• Inanticipated symptom, coming rapidly like a syndrome. You're a venom, living in my every atom.
• Lying on the floor / listening to faint footsteps / hoping to hear yours.  
• I am writing a love poem to you, not to prove I am a poet. It's simply my way not to forget you.
• DearYou, the furthest distance on earth isn't north & south, it is when I'm right in front of u & u don't know that I love U.
• We fought, we bled, tamed the wild time, which carried off our promises.
• I just need one clue, to lead my path, straight to you.
• The reason I'm willing to say 'I do' is because you said your love is true and promised you'll never make me feel blue.
• Let the wind scream! Let him show you my wounds, pierced by time.
• You, the master and the destroyer of my heart. But still, I love you.
• Now that you're gone, I know I have to carry on. But baby, I've loved you to my very bone, that I might need time to mourn.
• Wanna know a secret ? I can capture your face everytime you're around, thank God for these eyes I have.
• I'm a train. My destination unknown, would you be my station.
• I'm a hopeless romantic, for letting myself loving you like a lunatic.
• There's something about this place, where I couldn't forget you even if I try !
• Sweep me off my feet. Cleanse me. Purify me. In holy matrimony.

 We see in the next episode.

Cheers ..
I Putu Sansan Choa

Nyepi Çaka 1934

Nyepi : Bali's day of silence .

Every religion or culture all over the world has their own way to define and celebrate their new year. For example, the Chinese have the Imlek year and to celebrate it, have, as they called it in their own language, "Gong Xi Fat Choy". The Moslem societies have their Muharam year, and any of the people over the world using the Gregorian calendar, celebrate the New Year on January 1st.

The same thing also occurs in Bali, however the Balinese use many different calendar systems. They have adopted the Gregorian calendar for business and government purposes. But for the endless procession of holy days, temple anniversaries, celebrations, sacred dances, building houses, wedding ceremonies, death and cremation processes and other activities that define Balinese life, they have two calendar systems. The first is the Pawukon (from the word Wuku which means week) and Sasih (which is means month). Wuku consists of 30 items starting from Sinta, the first Wuku and end up with the Watugunung the last one. The Pawukon, a 210-day ritual calendar brought over from Java in the 14th century, is a complex cycle of numerological conjunctions that provides the basic schedule for ritual activities on Bali. Sasih, a parallel system of Indian origin, is a twelve month lunar calendar that starts with the vernal equinox and is equally important in determining when to pay respect to the Gods.

Westerners open the New Year in revelry, however, in contrast, the Balinese open their New Year in silence. This is called Nyepi Day, the Balinese day of Silence, which falls on the day following the dark moon of the spring equinox, and opens a new year of the Saka Hindu era which began in 78 A.D.

Nyepi is a day to make and keep the balance of nature. It is based on the story of when King Kaniska I of India was chosen in 78 A.D. The King was famous for his wisdom and tolerance for the Hinduism and Buddhism societies. In that age, Aji Saka did Dharma Yatra (the missionary tour to promote and spread Hinduism) to Indonesia and introduce the Saka year.

The lead upto Nyepi day is as follows:

• Melasti or Mekiyis or Melis (three days before Nyepi)
  Melasti is meant to clean the pratima or arca or pralingga (statue), with symbols that help to concentrate the mind in order to become closer to God. The ceremony is aimed to clean all nature and its content, and also to take the Amerta (the source for eternal life) from the ocean or other water resources (ie lake, river, etc). Three days before Nyepi, all the effigies of the Gods from all the village temples are taken to the river in long and colourful ceremonies. There, they have are bathed by the Neptune of the Balinese Lord, the God Baruna, before being taken back home to their shrines.
• Tawur Kesanga (the day before Nyepi)
  Exactly one day before Nyepi, all villages in Bali hold a large exorcism ceremony at the main village cross road, the meeting place of demons. They usually make Ogoh-ogoh (the fantastic monsters or evil spirits or the Butha Kala made of bamboo) for carnival purposes. The Ogoh-ogoh monsters symbolize the evil spirits surrounding our environment which have to be got rid of from our lives . The carnivals themselves are held all over Bali following sunset. Bleganjur, a Balinese gamelan music accompanies the procession. Some are giants taken from classical Balinese lore. All have fangs, bulging eyes and scary hair and are illuminated by torches.The procession is usually organised by the Seka Teruna, the youth organisation of Banjar. When Ogoh-ogoh is being played by the Seka Teruna, everyone enjoys the carnival. In order to make a harmonic relation between human being and God, human and human, and human and their environments, Tawur Kesanga is performed in every level of society, from the people's house. In the evening, the Hindus celebrating Ngerupuk, start making noises and light burning torches and set fire to the Ogoh-ogoh in order to get the Bhuta Kala, evil spirits, out of our lives.
• Nyepi
  On Nyepi day itself, every street is quiet - there are nobody doing their normal daily activities. There is usually Pecalangs (traditional Balinese security man) who controls and checks for street security. Pecalang wear a black uniform and a Udeng or Destar (a Balinese traditional "hat" that is usually used in ceremony). The Pecalangs main task is not only to control the security of the street but also to stop any activities that disturb Nyepi. No traffic is allowed, not only cars but also people, who have to stay in their own houses. Light is kept to a minimum or not at all, the radio or TV is turned down and, of course, no one works. Even love making, this ultimate activity of all leisure times, is not supposed to take place, nor even attempted. The whole day is simply filled with the barking of a few dogs, the shrill of insect and is a simple long quiet day in the calendar of this otherwise hectic island. On Nyepi the world expected to be clean and everything starts anew, with Man showing his symbolic control over himself and the "force" of the World, hence the mandatory religious control.
• Ngembak Geni (the day after Nyepi)
  Ngembak is the day when Catur Berata Penyepian is over and Hindus societies usually visit to forgive each other and doing the Dharma Canthi. Dharma Canthi are activities of reading Sloka, Kekidung, Kekawin, etc.(ancient scripts containing songs and lyrics).

From the religious and philosophy point of view, Nyepi is meant to be a day of self introspection to decide on values, eg humanity, love, patience, kindness, etc., that should kept forever. Balinese Hindus have many kind of celebrations (some sacred days) but Nyepi is, perhaps the most important of the island's religious days and the prohibitions are taken seriously, particularly in villages outside of Bali's southern tourist belt. Hotels are exempt from Nyepi's rigorous practices but streets outside will be closed to both pedestrians and vehicles (except for airport shuttles or emergency vehicles) and village wardens (Pecalang) will be posted to keep people off the beach. So wherever you happen to be staying on Nyepi Day in Bali, this will be a good day to spend indoors. Indeed Nyepi day has made Bali a unique island.


Note :

• Akhirnya dengan rasa yang diiringi rasa bahagia saya ucapkan kelar ini tugas, Done ..

Love Poems I

If you want more romantically, surely check this out :

• Let me be the fever that keeps you in bed. Beside me. F(or)ever. ~ 
• It is not you that I'm frightened to slip away. It is me, in your absence, drifting away.
• You are the reason why the sun shines brighter, the only cause that makes full moons stay longer.
• I long to see the chain reaction which causes your face to light up at the sight of mine and vice versa.
• Your love is a never ending song of my heart, after the first tone came suddenly, the tuneful melody stays eternally.
• I need you, as a voice, to fill the silence of my soul.
• In the palm of my hand a firefly is running out of light. But the rest of her warmth still brightens my heart.
• I love you, quieter than sleep, earlier than dew.
• T'is your presence, that brought the sweetest yet toughest battle between my heart and my head. 
• At times love itself is a cure when another love disappoints us. Like my heart falling into yours after being broken by his 
• Let the moon stand by your slumber, smiling in his light so tender.
• Close your eyes and sleep your heart in lullaby, while the stars twinkle in the sky.
• I don't want you to go home. Ever. I want you here. I want you near. Forever.
• I trust the wind. My wings shall be the eyes to see. You need no worry about me.
• I can make you fall, though I'm not an autumn call. Our love is hidden under the leaves, until the first spring breeze.
• I call you butterfly, in my spring you will die.
• I have made myself available. Let me hear your offer.
• I'm not Juliet and you're not my Romeo. But with a love like this, I know it's true from head to toe.
• Dear you, I miss your voice, I miss your shoulder, and overall I miss myself being loved by you.
• I want to write a serene poem, about the moon peeking through leaves, about how peaceful the drizzle drops, about you.
• Too long, have I stayed in silence, tending to a homeless soul, as a piece of my heart empties its tears.
• Make a little wish, in obscure twilight. When will you return, my dear, Into my embrace forever ?
• Cause you're the sweetener in my morning coffee. Without you, my life will be tasteless.
• Slowly, I closed the final page of a book. Instantly, I started living with a new understanding.
• Rustle of the wind, all silent except my mind.
• Here I am in the darkest of nights, thinking how I long to make you my bride.
• It's in your eyes, it's in your smile; without you my heart just went dry. 
• When the good becomes bad, there's no different between hello and goodbye. Just stay still ~ by my side.
• Under the rain shall we dance together, until the raindrops wipe our doubts away.
• Like a clock-tick into full-cycle, all is but a preparation: like crowd into silence, like light into emptiness
• I will let you go, only when the times finally tell my heart to do so.
• I see the stars sparkling not in the night sky, but in your bright eyes.
• I sit on the bench in every twilight; surrender from memories I could never fight.
• Dear, little sun; don't you stop shining. Paint me a rainbow when the rain stops pouring.
• Loving you is like finding the meaning of new word in dictionary. Curious until I found the answer.
• Maybe falling in love to you is a message from God. He shows me how to be strong when He take you from me.
• There is a LIE in every BELIEF.

Enough for today we see in the next episode.

Cheers ..
I Putu Sansan Choa .

Schizophrenia !!

Liar, semakin liar.
suara itu semakin ganas dan liar.
awalnya terdengar kita berteman.
tapi eksekusi mimpi berakhir sedih.
saya dan dia dipaksa berteman mereka, si suara pembunuh.
dia dan mereka adalah musuh.
si suara terus mengganggu, berbincang binal di jeruju sepanjang waktu.
ya, saya bukan gila.
mereka yang gila, dari dulu mereka yang gila.
dia yang gila.
kita bukan berteman, kita sudah menjadi musuh.
liar, suara liar itu, semakin liar.
ayo, bunuhlah raga saya.

Schizophrenia adalah suatu penyakit yang dikatakan orang "gila" tapi sebenarnya tidak .. #sepertipadagambar ini 

Belum ada Judul

berjudul tanpa kata judul

malam semalam terasa getir.

ternyata hari bukan semakin baik.

ambisi tertelan bulat reaksi.

ternyata aku bertubuh ombak menyatu rapuh.

tersudut angin yang berwarna abu abu.

sejuta juta mulut mengolokku, tapi aku tuli.

sejuta juta mulut memedas usia rasa, aku biasa saja.

tapi waktu belakangan,aku tidak lebih penikmat galau lagi, aku suka caraku lagi.

sekarung mimpi bercecer haru.

semua jalan berlalu, terbunuh.

segelas tuduh bergelar palsu.

semua terpanggil ke satu waktu, kubunuh.

tanganku berkeringat darah, merah dan merah.

aku terpingkal melihat tingkahku.

aku tersenyum melihat waktu tergolek hina.

tubuhnya membusuk kantuk, basi, basi dan teramat basi.

Damai, damai dalam perut .

“Cinta berawal dari perut”

Pepatah kuno memang, tapi masih bisa dipercaya. Artinya, cinta bisa semakin tumbuh atau semakin berkembang karena hidangan yang disajikan orang-orang dekat kita dengan “bumbu” kasih sayang.
“Perdamaian berawal dari perut”
Yang ini pepatah baru buatanku. Wow… wow… keren ya bisa bikin pepatah. Bukannya ingin dibilang orang bijak, tapi terlintas saja sebuah ide ketika perut sedang kenyang sehabis makan bareng-bareng (asyiknya rame-ramelah kata skrip di sebuah iklan rokok). Mau tahu ceritanya? Baca terus dong…

Sebelum terusin baca, coba perhatikan foto yang ada di bawah ini. Foto yang merekam aktivitas paling menyenangkan dalam hidup ini. Makan. Apalagi makannya rame-rame hasil karya bersama pula.

Asyiknya reme-rame...

Acara makan bersama yang bikin hati ceria. Hati ceria wajah pun jadi sumringah. Sebetulnya hanya menu sederhana. Nasi bungkus yang masaknya langsung dicampur dengan ikan teri dan telor dimakan dengan sambal terasi dan lalapan daun singkong. Penyajiannya pun hanya di atas selembar daun pisang (dan tentu sekarang pun menjadi “memori daun pisang” yang tak terlupakan). Makan bareng-bareng setelah memasaknya bersama-sama pula.
Itu tadi sebuah aktivitas rutin setiap manusia dalam kehidupannya sehari-hari, makan. Karena hanya merupakan rutinitas sehari-hari, kegiatan makan ini jadi terlupakan maknanya, padahal dalam momen tertentu bisa sangat bermakna. Acara makan bersama, misalnya, yang berawal dari sebuah ide dadakan saat lagi nongkrong bareng seperti dalam foto di atas. Dari iseng-iseng, berkreasi (masak-masak maksudnya), kemudian apalagi kalau bukan perut kenyang, dan tanpa disadari terciptalah sebuah kebersamaan dalam kegembiraan. Kebersamaan itu sebuah hal yang menyenangkan pastinya karena merupakan situasi yang jauh dari kesenjangan dan perbebadaan yang semua semua itu seringkali bisa menimbulkan perpecahan. Perpecahan antarperorangan, antarkelompok atau antargolongan atau bahkan antarmasyarakat yang sering terjadi di negeri ini.
Kebersamaan itu penting karena melalui kebersamaan itulah hal yang lebih besar bisa diciptakan.
Apa itu? Kedamaian, situasi yang didambakan oleh setiap orang.

Bisa bercerita seperti itu karena waktu ikut makan bareng memang terasa banget suasana kebersamaannya. Dari momen acara itu, kami lupa bahwa “anggota” makan bersama nasi liwet itu terdiri dari bersuku-suku dengan stutus sosial berbeda. Yang ada hanya satu perasaan dan pikiran. Semua yang terlibat di dalamnya ingin merasakan dan cuma memikirkan kebahagiaan bersama-sama.
Semua tidak pernah menyinggung latar belakang masing-masing. Acara makan bareng waktu itu dilakukan di pelataran sebuah gedung futsal di dekat tempat tinggal kami. Yang ikut asyik rame-rame pun ada seorang kandidat doktor, ada yang sedang mengikuti pendidikan magister, pegawai-pegawai gedung futsal dari pengelola sampai tukang parkirnya, pemiliki toko minuman dan warung kopi di sarana olahraga itu, serta penjaga tempat kos. Sementara latar belakang suku mereka ada yang orang Aceh, orang Sunda, orang Jawa, dan orang Padang. Latar belakang seperti itu yang bisa menimbulkan pengkotakan-pengkotakan dalam masyarakat jadi sirna. Yang ada hanya pikiran, “Mari kita bergembira bersama melalui acara makan-makan”. Kalau sudah bergembira bersama-sama, hanya perdamaian yang terasa.
Nggak jauh kan? Jadi, makan (bersama)-kenyang-kegembiraan-kebersamaan-kedamaian masih bisa dihubungkan. Bener kan masih satu RW?
Kesimpulannya, perut kenyang sebagai akibat makan (bersama-sama atau sendiri-sendiri) bisa menciptakan perdamaian. Bukannya kemampuan memenuhi kebutuhan makan merupakan salah satu indikator kesejahteraan? Dan, kesejahteraan bisa menciptakan kedamaian (perdamaian).
Implikasinya dalam skala lebih besar, misalnya kelompok masyarakat, pun dapat dijelaskan. Coba bayangkan seandainya masing-masing orang dalam sebuah kelompok masyarakat bisa memenuhi kebutuhan makan mereka dengan baik, betapa gembiranya mereka. Dengan demikian, barangkali akan tercipta kedamaian di antara mereka. Sebuah masyarakan yang boleh dibilang sejahtera. Tentu tidak ada lagi pertikaian seperti yang sering diberitakan di media. Demo menuntut ini-itu yang ujung-ujungnya tidak jauh dari urusan kesejahteraan pun tidak lagi digelar. Kalau masyarakat bisa memenuhi kebutuhan pangan mereka dan setiap hari tidak ada yang kelaparan, apalagi yang mau dituntut melalui demo-demo dan alasan apalagi yang dijadikan “bahan” pertikaian. Tidak ada.
Pernyataan-pernyataan di atas tidak bermaksud mengatakan sumber utama pertikaian antarperorangan dan antarkomunitas adalah kelaparan. Tapi, setidaknya masyarakat yang kesejahteraannya tercapai tidak mudah disulut dan tersulut untuk bertikai antarsesama mereka. Kenyataannya yang kita lihat di tayangan berita-berita televisi tentang pertikaian antarperorangan dan antarkelompok pada umumnya berpelaku orang atau masyarakat yang belum atau kurang sejahtera.

Akhirnya… Tidak berlebihan kalau dikatakan, “Perdamaian berawal dari perut”. Pertanyaannya, melihat kondisi Indonesia yang seperti sekarang ini, kapan ya semua orang di negeri ini bisa makan dengan tenang dan gembira? Tidak ada lagi orang yang bertanya, “Apa besok bisa makan?”